yesterday

just me thinking

yesterday

i was lying in bed

and the only thing i could think of

was how much i missed her.

how much i wanted to hold them.

to kiss her.

to love them.

i got dressed and got in the car.

and i closed my eyes

rested my head against the headrest

and missed her.

my heart was aching

but not with pain—

it was longing.

a powerful, stomach-turning longing

for the love of my life.

i opened my eyes

watched the world blur together outside the window

and wished that they were in my arms.

that i could hold her.

my stomach is twisting

with the desperate need

to be with her.

so i find comfort

in creating these fantasies

where we are together

holding each other

loving each other

being the closest two people can be

without merging souls.

and i dwell in these fantasies

and will continue to

until the day i find her in the airport

run over to her

and kiss her.